It's February and I Feel Free

"There is a lovely hill that runs out of Ixopo."- Alan Paton, 'Cry, the Beloved Country'

I've been busy, relaxed, anxious, and enjoying more peace than I have ever known in my working adult life. I got my hair done, invested my superannuation four percent start-of-year payout in getting a house renovated, resigned from my full-time teaching job, started my M.A in full-swing, started having two part-time jobs, became co-chair of a government advisory board, and did NOT finish reading 'DUNE' (Book 1). I'll get there. Book-wise.

I've moved up to Siusega, where I now live in a small but neat unit with Samkeyes (my cousin who is now my brother). It was a real fixer-upper when we first got it. I like to think I am learning patience. 

We live next door to our uncles Peni and Pastor Siona. Our uncle Siona's house is where we eat and hang out most of the time. He drives us to school early everyday. I am adjusting to being part of a family again. My own blood family, for once in a really long time.

I am tired and very energized. I feel better than I have felt since my dad passed away. Perhaps this is the right arrangement for me.

In 2025, I choose joy. My joy. For the first time in years.

I'm financially a lot more stable now. I sleep longer. Work more. Work harder- I've always worked hard, but this time, I do it very happily. Happiness is sparse in this climate, no?

Samkeyes is at Nursing School. He loves it. I am so proud of him! Everyone who comes into my brother's gentle and kind care in the healthcare system will be very blessed. Just as I have always been.

It's February and I'm wearing lots of makeup and my favorite jewelry again. I am free.